Things I Have Changed – That Are Different Now
The house that I live in has a sentence engraved into its wall.
J’avance.
I’m advancing. I’m moving forward.
Change is following me anywhere I go;
it’s written all over my inner landscape,
folding into myself.
I started this book in the belief that I could write about change, that I could excavate what constitutes transformation, to understand “the process” and figure out how to trust it along the way. Yet I am finding myself in a constant shift of what feels like performing open heart surgery on myself, trying to explain, whilst understanding, whilst doing. Amidst the constant blind spots sprouting every time I choose a perspective, I lose another. There’s always something. In many ways this book snuck its way onto the page, as if remembering a faint dream in the morning, barely feeling its presence. And then later through the day suddenly rushing in, with all its vividness into the forefront of my mind. It was all there – all real.
So I guess in the end this book is not exactly about change but about being alive in one body, one existence, moving forward.
– No wonder I am struggling.
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When I started writing about my own life, searching for myself ("Things I Have Noticed," 2020) and for my self-worth ("Things I Have Loved," 2023), this book dedicated to self-narration ("Things I Have Changed") had actually already begun long before. It is a collage of all the blind spots and omissions, the things I couldn't or wouldn't see over the years. It is about the things I don't want to write about: my mother, money, control, intrusive thoughts, fear. – But must.
Part collage, part confession, her new poetic memoir pushes into the liminal spaces we avoid—the shadows of selfhood, the parts of us that hurt, heal, and keep moving forward. Hembeck’s words unfold like a dream remembered—fragile, vivid, and unshakable.
A glimpse into the creative alchemy of self-narration, Things I Have Changed is more than a book; it’s an experience.
PRE-ORDER: the book is coming out MAY 2025